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    Ajdabia, 4th April 2011 by Anastasia Taylor-Lind

    No, I don’t remember your name.

    I left it in Ivor’s notebook

    translated from phonetic Arabic

    next to details of the assault on Brega.

    I didn’t find your family

    and I didn’t show them your photograph.

    I didn’t even print it.

    I remember your profile sharply illuminated

    by the surgical spot-light above your head

    a thin band of white running past your closed eyes

    into that newly-grown beard.

    I remember all the journo excuses-

    the bright light

    we were shining

    on a dark corner of the world.

    I remember the editor who said people only care

    about places they’ve been to on holiday.

    And the one who said advertisers won’t buy

    page space next to dying people.

    I can still see the padded bandage

    that held your head and hid the bullet hole.

    Blood seeping through the gauze along the threads

    at the nape of your neck.

    A trickle coagulated on your ear.

    The smell of a butcher’s shop on a hot day.

    I remember struggling with my exposure,

    metering for your bright face

    and eliminating the emergency room with my aperture.

    Listening to the clicking of our cameras

    and the moaning of the legless man

    on the gurney next to you.


    the doctor said.

    Yes, I remember you,

    the first man

    I watched die,

    but I don’t remember your name.

    Anastasia Taylor-Lind is an English/Swedish journalist (b.1981) who has been working for leading editorial publications all over the world on issues relating to women, population and war for a decade. Anastasia’s work has been exhibited internationally, in spaces such as The Saatchi Gallery, The Frontline Club, and The National Portrait Gallery in London, SIDE gallery in Newcastle, Fovea Exhibitions in New York, Pikto Gallery in Toronto and The New Mexico Museum of Modern Art in Santa Fe. Her first book MAIDAN – Portraits from the Black Square, which documents the 2014 Ukrainian uprising in Kiev, was published by GOST books the same year. The Devil's Horsemen came out in 2018.